THE JOURNEY - January 2014

Date: January 9th 2014

Feeling: puffy, sad, fat and yuck

Weight: a lot at 2*5

Measurements: no clue

 

Welcome to the first JOURNEY blog post.

I started eating Paleo last week, made it pretty official on Monday 1/6/14, so this picture is pretty much exactly like I was when I started (maybe a little less bloated)

 

HOW I FEEL

I feel pretty ok. I have this weird thing that happens (I was told it happens when you stop eating carbs) but I eat, and will eat a lot and while I am eating, and after my meal, my stomach is in a

CONSTANT state of "about to growl" like I am hungry! ALL THE STINKIN TIMEEEEE!!! It drives me insane because I would like for it to just growl or just go away - nothing like always feeling like its about to rumble and it never does and feeling like I didn't just have a huge meal.

Today I did get the shakes and a bit light-headed around 11:30am - all I had up until that point was a cup of coffee - I need to be sure to eat in the morning. So I did have a piece of chocolate because I was freaking myself out and making myself feel like I would pass out. The chocolate helped and then I had lunch.

Because I know this happens when I get off the sugars/carbs, I need to be sure to eat at breakfast, or snack constantly until lunch.

I don't feel deprived, I never do eating this way, just that weird hungry feeling.

 

HOW I LOOK

I look like crap, wth do you think I am doing this?!?!!?!?!?!? My skin is SUPER SUPER SUPER yuck, my hair is drying out at the ends. I'm not retaining a lot of water so I am not super puffy, but I am just gross. Sorry I just am not feelin good this month and that is OK because next month I will feel better and each month after it will just get better and better!!!!

 

PROUD MOMENTS!

I've had one! On Tuesday I had to inspect a clients home and I had to go to court. On top of that I had a very unwelcome visit from Aunt Flo, had no power at the house on the COLDEST FREAKING DAY OF THE YEAR and was generally in a really funky mood. I found some money (because when I started out my day I had ZERO - card declined and EVERYTHING lol) and needed to get some lunch. I was like 'EFF IT! I'm mad and cold and hungry and broke and raggin' and pissy, EFF IT I'm getting McDonalds!" but I smacked myself and looked at the shopping strip and saw Jimmy John's and convinced myself that I would be MORE pissed at myself if I caved and ate poorly, and would feel BETTER on this shitty day if I decided to eat well! So, I did!

I got the J.J. Gargantuan UNWICH (sub with no bread, wrapped in iceberg lettuce leaves - I was ADDICTED to them last time I ate this way) and a pickle.

****Never eat an unwich with onions in your car... I smell onions days later.

 

NOT SO PROUD MOMENTS.....

I ate 2 donut holes last night.

And a bite of my daughters donut this morning (WTFFFFFFFFF did I buy donuts?!?!?!?!!?!?!?)

And 3 bites of my daughters Velveeta Shells and Cheese

anddddddddddd a cherry coke.

(I am super not OK with this, but I need to be honest and hold myself accountable if I am going to be the better person I am striving to be)

 

Thanks so much for following my journey on this blog. Any advice, support, encouragement, recipes - ANYTHING is always welcome! Thank you and see you on the journey this time next month!!!!!